Lunes, Hunyo 11, 2007
its been a long time, again! im ultra bored, so i came to my blog. and noticed that there are weird spams on my tagboard. hahah! anyway to ms sarah chan, thanks for the erm "update"! hahah. someone told me last year he was a councilor. hahah, but i dont care! take care too.
everyone, its the holidays. yay! but boo, only two weeks left! and time is ticking away, tick tick tick. okay lame. anyway, church retreat was fun! thats not including the horrible food and ardous journies and pests. like we arrived there, and had to lug our luggages (notice the choice of words) up, because little ms lift broke down! then lunch was pathetic. everyone was like -_-, thats it? hahah! and funny, several adults decided to help themselves to the bananas on the table, only to be told they were not for buffet, but on sale at one rm per piece! lol. then onto the room and admin stuff. woo, sherrie was going to sleep by herself because her sister was only arriving on wed. but nope, she wasnt scared one bit! the tv channels were pathetic, ranging (if its even a range) from hbo, cnn, astrolive (which kept showing tennis games) and cartoon network!
i was helping at the children's side, and honestly irritated that tons or tens or people kept asking me whether i felt left out cos i couldnt join the youth side! im personally fine by it, i believe its time to stop taking and start giving. and i could also learn things from helping. so i stuck with my decision, but i joined the youth one night. and i must thank God for that. i was offered an option of joining on wed night or thurs morn. i opted for the night one and i think it was marvellous. the worship was beyond this world. like i felt the words jump out of the screen, and felt it speaking to me directly. it was like God was telling me, hes all i ever need, or want. nothing else or no one else could even get close. it was amazing. and i kind of made a decision. but i dont know, i havent implemented it yet. cos im scared, i dont want to let go, i dont want a history repeat. but honestly, if this continues, you're so outta my life, it doesnt really matter. i honestly am past caring, it may sting a bit, but i'll be over before i can say hallelujah. i dont know.
maybe time has washed over us, maybe. just maybe.anyway! onto pests i saw there! i saw a silly brown rat! on thurs morn, when i woke up and opened the toilet door, i saw a brown thing move, and i saw its tail dancing. hahha, maybe i was still stoning, so i said, abigiail, theres a rat. so reactionless. and i also saw a spider whose body was the size of my palm. its legs were hairy and long. i was like :O, i wasnt scared of small little spiders found at homes. but this, was scary. luckily auntie tes was braved and she battled the spider, emerging victorious! (: and so we were all save! throw in a couple of lizards, tons of houseflies, i mean tons, and some milipedes and meal worms and flies.
however, not all was ): i enjoyed myself. i decided i like table tennis! sarah, ruth, jeremy and i kept playing! and when i did a china player impersonation, i became pro. and sarah and i won jeremy and ruth k, something we never did before! (: woohoo! and i <3 <3 <3 MAFIA! its like i never knew it was so ultra duper fun! in school, we play it like murderer, so theres no discussion and plotting. wah, but adding that in is so fun. cos people scheme and plot, so its like survivor or what! and let me declare myself quite pro! i like act non-mafia and everyone got tricked k, including spectators! and woooooooh, on thurs night (last night), we had youth worship from 11 to 12? then we slacked there. but the action started at 1+, we mafia-ed all the way till 6+!!!!! wooooooooo. actually tabitha and i wanted to continue, but everyone started falling asleep, and although jotham tried to entertain us. everyone was just sitting around and soon, sandman threw sand at my eyes. so we went to z. we could sleep in peace cos our little friend mr rat got caught! and my another love, pool!! i was crazy about it after class chalet last year, but im crazy about it again. now i know the proper technique to playing. so i shall indulge in more pool! any takers?
wnt it be fun, if life was all about things you enjoy. reading a book, playing mafia, playing sports you like, eating food you like, having company you like, playing pool, sitting around and talking. so philosophical. cos some would beg to differ, in that a life of pleasure causes one not to seek improvement or efficiency, yet others would comment on the dullness of such a life.
then on friday, we broke camp, but i went to stay at palm resort. and during that night / next morning, i bought 2 shorts, 1 dress (i wonder when im going to wear it), contacts, ballerina flats. its fun, if life did not entail suffering or work, but life would be meaningless then.
anyway, after reading the street lawyer by john grisham. im starting to wonder, in the future, would i be able to give up everything - riches, possesions, status, power, success - for a higher calling. will i leave all behind, without regard or complains, ignoring voices of disapproval, to do what is right, what is needed, what God wants me to. i pray i will.
wow, this is a long entry! thats nice. (:
the last goodbye.
struggling; but failing. and, its gone.
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